​flower, sun, & rain

I just don't know where I belong
And this flesh that I'm entrapped in feels so uncomfortable and wrong
It's like I'm allergic to every single one of my surroundings
Two wolves inside my head, got migraines from their endless howling

Stuck in the flower, sun, and rain
All these days seem to keep repeating over again
And I don't know how to keep myself together
Seems like I'll feel this way forever
In my head, always feeling depressed
All alone, while I'm being ignored by my friends
Always tryna reach out, but I'm neglecting myself
Too exhausted from this hell to even go ask for help

If your reflection is who you are
How can the mirror truly speak for your heart?
They built these walls, they made these thoughts
So pay attention to work or you'll pay the cost
Hidden in the shadows, barely made it out the gallows
Tried to drink repression away
Now I'm a decade behind and with so little to show
But it's cool, I never liked being seen anyway

Flower, sun, and rain, tell me who I'm supposed to be today
I let people who didn't want to see me shine define me
Now I don't know if I'll be okay
Never been a straight path had to break off my mask
Separated me from people that I thought would stay
And that's okay, we didn't need to be friends
More important that I feel like myself again