​florida (2019)

[Chorus]
I don't think I'll make it hanging here another day
I get spirited away
Every time I'm near it I run clear the other way
I disappear, I never stay, I'm spirited away
I don't think I'll make it hanging here another day
I wanna get spirited away
I disappear, I never stay
I disappear, I never stay

[Verse 1]
I'm out on the balcony, I can see the ocean
I'm practicing alchemy on you, pour a potion
I conjure a spell, wish you well
I can say I'm joking when I call my city hell, but
Tossing dollars and pennies in wishing wells
And I promised I'd be gone and forget it by 2012
And I thought if I got out I'd never visit
When you talk I think you're all a bunch of bitches
And never listen
I hide in closets, the smallest that I can fit in
Getting restless, I fuss and I fidget and
I feel so grey in my city, it's a prison
I just wanna shine my colors on the walls like a prism but
No one answers when I ask how their work's been
Or smiles back on the street or at the church and
I don't speak and I don't care, it isn't worth it
I'll be meek enough to inherit the earth, but

[Chorus]
I don't think I'll make it hanging here another day
I get spirited away
Every time I'm near it I run clear the other way
I disappear, I never stay, I'm spirited away
I don't think I'll make it hanging here another day
I wanna get spirited away
I disappear, I never stay
I disappear, I never stay

[Verse 2]
Bitter and sad is how I'm feeling, like I'm celery
And I could draw the pattern on my ceiling from my memory
I grow balls to show up at my old fave places
Deep breaths, Kitty, very brave face, chest out
Remind myself I deserve this
Even though they'll be whispering that I'm worthless
My mama says to show 'em what I'm made of
But they already know it all and that's what I'm afraid of
And I've been real down but I'm powering up
I've been a real big motherfucking coward, it sucks
You know it's been a couple years, I think I've had enough
You don't think I'll do it? I don't think I give a fuck

[Outro]
Do you really think it's fair that I've had to be scared of you?
Are you embarrassed? I guess you better go and hide in Paris