Flooding My Own Garden

I see no blood no scars
All I know is something hurts
I'm in the field you know
Where just invasive species grow

I'm grateful that you made my bed
Thanks but I'll sleep when I'm dead
Gardens flooded please don't bother
I've killed plants with too much water

Fuck this world I hate it
I love it all the same and
Ill pay my debts from way back then
I'll be back I don't know when

Clock ticks I never miss
It's better if you just exist
Thank you for this gift of life
"Love is patient love is kind"

This field is dying and I'm dying cause I need to leave
I'm running from the only thing that made me live and breathe

I'm never tired I always chase the rising sun
The world is mine so I think I'll pack my bag and run

I still remember "someday we won't remember this"
You still remind me through the winters "for now spring exists"

You know there's something I've been asking myself to say
But that's for another day