Float

Why can't I see that I'm the one who needs change?
Everyone I love find a way to run away
Leaving me alone like "Why you not stay?"
I know that it's me, how I handle my pain

And I'm sorry for the hurt that
I caused you to never make you wanna come back
You told jokes that I never could have laughed at
I was dealing with the trauma but you saw that

You tried to make change but I stayed in my place
So I'm sorry for my ways and the mistakes
I don't wanna stay same but it's too safe here
Everything I say to make you stay

Now you're gone and I'm stuck here so alonе
I love you but I'm sorry that it couldn't show
We realizе all we have when we let it go
But it's too late now, we'll never know

I just gotta float
Don't you try to catch me
Please just don't feel less of me

Cause my heart's broke
How'd this get so messy?
Why life's so depressing?

Act like a monster
Feel like an imposter
In my own life all the time, wonder how I lost her
That's not my problem, I don't gotta solve 'em
I don't fucking got the time to climb up from the bottom

All the time I was sick of my mind
Think about how hard I just want some love in my life
Now I'm stuck in the state, wanna end my life
I'm just scared to say that so I tell her I'm fine

Say I'm OK but I'm not, really miss you
All the pain coming back but I can't call you
You're the only one who ever made the problems go away
You're the only thing that ever really made me wanna stay

But I did it to myself so I don't deserve your help
I'm in love with all the pain, I don't know if you could tell
I'm all caught up in my mind, I keep telling you those lies
I wish I never did, now you're outta my mind

Alone I'm here today like I'll be inside my grave
Never make a change so nobody ever stay
Go and let me be, 'cause I know this is my fate
That I finally had to float from mistakes that I've made

I just gotta float
Don't you try to catch me
Please just don't feel less of me

Cause my heart's broke
How'd this get so messy?
Why life's so depressing?

Act like a monster
Feel like an imposter
In my own life all the time, wonder how I lost her
That's not my problem, I don't gotta solve 'em
I don't fucking got the time to climb up from the bottom