First Letter from St. Sean (Rearranged 2018)

When your teeth turn gray and stain your tongue
When you bite so hard on your lip blood fills your mouth
You can't swallow it cause you can't swallow guilt
When your best friend dies and your next friend dies
And your best friend's friend takes his life
And you spend six months on your own
'Cause there's no one left to talk to

And I still hear them talk in the back of my head
And I still hear them talk
And they say to me
That I am not a lie
I didn't mean to leave you when I died
I was just scared you might be the one to leave
There's so much more to life than the flick of a knife
I am alive 'cause I'm alive inside of you