With this song, she’s talking about someone she knew in her past. Possibly a lover? She talks directly to them, but she realizes that she has changed so much since then, and is growing into a better person, while the person stays in the same place they are in.
You held me first
And traced my lips I'm sorry
Held me from the dirt
You had me first I'm sorry
You are not my shelf
To hold up my old self I'm sorry
You need something else
I am not myself I'm sorry
Mother knows I drown in my lies
Father knows I learned my lessons the second time
Ask me where I'll go I'll say I do not know
No I do not know
No I do not know
But you drowned in my waves
And I can tell that you are hurt
Please know I loved you first
Please know I loved you
But you are not my shelf
To hold up my old self I'm sorry
You need something else
I am not my self I'm sorry
(Oooh)
Mother knows I drown in my lies
Father knows I learned my lessons the second time
Ask me where I'll go I'll say I do not know
No I do not know
No I do not know
Haley Heynderickx released First I’m Sorry on Fri Jan 29 2016.