First Christmas

[Verse 1
Waiting at the door while you hug your brother
Hand in your pocket and a gift in the other
I'm kind
Of nervous
But free

[Verse 2]
Heart in the home of a newish lover
Daughter of a worried Jewish mother
Told me
To Smile
And say please

[Pre-Chorus]
There's lights on the tree
Getting carried away
Cousins playing songs
On the floor like a stage
It's magic
I wish I could stay

[Chorus]
But all that I know
This night is perfect
Safe and warm
I spent my life searching for more
Just to find it on a winter afternoon
Saying how lucky am I to spend my very first
Christmas with you
Christmas with you

[Verse 3]
Talks on the couch
And trips to the attic
Drinks on the porch
And we're watching the classics
Chevy Chase
Is driving on the screen
This snow makes New York feel like a small town
It's only been a few years since I came out
With you
I've never felt so me

[Pre-Chorus]
These lights on the trees
Getting carried away
Cousins playing songs
On the floor like a stage
It's magic
I wish I could stay

[Chorus]
All that I know
This night is perfect
Safe and warm
I spent my life searching for more
Just to find it on a winter afternoon
Saying how lucky am I to spend
My very first Christmas with you
First Christmas with you

[Verse 4]
I, I
And no one
Ever understands me
Your mom is telling me I'm family
Next year can we do it all again
Same time same place
I text you
When the plane is landing
I'll admit
I'm already planning
Next year can we do it all again
Next Christmas day