find me in the ocean

It's hard to find hope
Each word that I speak feels like walkin' on tightrope
It's your face that I see when I have both my eyes closed
Delusion and reality a never ending cycle

Slice me open
Your words left broken
Sinking in the ocean
The same one that we both soaked in
What is love when it runs so thin
Give in to my flesh as I bask in sin
And thats the cause of our end
I want our love to spark again
Only thing I eat toxins
I don't have you here no more to make me stop it
Blood in my vomit
Tell the ER I can't stop it
If you've ever met me know my drug abuse is chronic

I knew this day would come
It was my mistake to fall in love
I wish I could forget you and everything we've ever done
Nothing but a waste of time
Nothing but was once my bride
Remember at the beach when I comforted you bout your thighs
And you jumped into my arms
With tears inside of both our eyes
All I have is memory you're supposed to be there when I die
Supposed to be here as my life
Supposed to get here as my light
Now you're gone and I can't sleep a single night
Ever since I was conscious I just begged to be alright
We never talk anymore and when we do it's just a fight
They say words dont hurt but yours they took my life :/
I've been nothing but a corpse for these months and I can't stand it
Ket n xans n alcohol how the fuck I'm standin'
You stole my heart and mind away just like a bandit
Whats the point of trying when everything else is failing