“Fenix” is the fifth song on Max Diaz’s second complete album “Again”. Named after his father’s nickname “Fenix” which was coined in prison, Max goes into detail about his internal dialogue and feelings surrounding his father, who was absent for most of his life.
[Verse 1]
On my way to see him now
I've got too much to think about
And I just wanna figure out
Do I really need him now?
He was just a father for I have not yet seen
I just want to talk to him
To know if he still loves me
Even though he’s not around
It feels as if he's with me now
I just want him to come home
I don't wanna be alone
[Chorus]
I just want to talk to pretty girls about my feelings
And I don’t even know if what they say has meaning
And I just miss my dad, I want him here, I want him back
And I wonder if he's proud, I didn't need him then and I sure don't need him now
I just want my friends to stop getting all up in my head
Like my momma said, that I don't need to pretend and
I just wanna be the famous people on TV
I just wanna call my dad and ask "Are you proud of me?"
[Verse 2]
Raising Arizona was the story of my life
And I got nothing to talk about
He just opened my eyes
He turned a boy into a man he reassured I was planned and thank god he found himself inside he never thought
And I know he's just doing fine because he's found God
He's really all I ever had and I just miss my dad
[Chorus]
I just want to talk to pretty girls about my feelings
And I don’t even know if what they say has meaning
And I just miss my dad, I want him here, I want him back
And I wonder if he’s proud, I didn't need him then and I sure don’t need him now
I just want my friends to stop getting all up in my head
Like my momma said, that I don't need to pretend and
I just wanna be the famous people on TV