​feels like death

[Verse 1: deadaux]
Feel insane, I got no soul
Ever since a kid, never had a home
Feel unsafe, I want to go home
Man, I hate myself too fucking much, can't be left alone
Bitch, I feel insane, I feel suicidal
Throw myself on the train tracks if you fucking leave me
I'm going to kill myself one day, my friends don't believe me
My parents don't want me to die, but they're the reason
No, no, I don't want to go
No, no, I don't want to know
I'm going to hang myself like my grandma did
You think I'm crazy, you'd do the same if you saw what I did
I do not fucking care what you got to say
You can stop trying to stop talking me out of it like you got to say
'Cause I'm lost, I don't know wherе to go
Getting hurt in places that I thought werе home
I just want to grab the gun, one shot to the dome
Mental institute pain, can't be left alone

[Verse 2: cru]
Fall asleep, and I'm going to cry
You can't tell me, I'ma lie
How many days is it going to take?
You can see it on my head, you can see on my face
I wish you were dead, then maybe I can feel okay
I can't take it, I can't fix it, I can't make it
I'm not ready, I'll admit it