Fear of Flying

[Verse 1: Jered Sanders]
Man, I been trying to figure this out
Ain't living but I ain't dying
Been feeling I'm down and out
But I got a fear of flying it seems
I'm in the water but it's boiling or a drought
So either I'm feeling thirsty or pouring out a spout
I been living out of spite, I been sleeping on the couch
I been screaming out for Christ, I been quiet as a mouse
In my prayer closet wondering if God is in my house
Cause if I'm blessed and highly favored
Why I'm lying to my spouse
Man, a high calling ain't the words flying out my mouth
Ain't a gentle tone with Quaje, then what the fuss about
Like your babies ain't enough to measure all your footsteps
And every bit of apathy ain't killing off your clout
Like that wasn't you
Balling on your living room carpet
And praying God would make over
And how your heart was the target
How you praying for good
But you been living like the Saw clown
Man you ain't really scared to fly

[Chorus: Jered Sanders]
You too busy trying to fall down, huh
Man you ain't really scared to fly
You too busy trying to fall down, huh
Man you ain't really scared to fly
You too busy trying to fall down, huh
(Fall down, fall down, fall down)
Man you ain't really scared to fly
You too busy trying to fall down, huh
(Fall down, down)
You too busy trying to fall down

[Verse 2: Jered Sanders]
What if I told you that the crown full of thorns
Wasn't the last time I drifted and I lied on the Lord, huh
What if I told you how the waters got choppy
When the lights got dimmer and the tithes got short
Man I don't need a metaphorical discourse
The devil was alive on the side with the pitchfork
I'm narrow road walking can't deny I done slipped off
The thorn on my side feeling like its a clip tossed, bang
But don't you judge me like you never sin
Man, I'm dying enough inside trying to hold this in
And it's a struggle trying not to be a rolling stone
They lining up to knock me down like some bowling pins
I know the righteous lining up like "here we go again"
Another Christ-repping rapper out condoning sin
But I'm a love 'em though they hate me
I know I been the Saw Clown
I'm just confessing all my flaws

[Chorus: Jered Sanders]
Hope you praying as I fall down
Now as I'm falling out the sky
Hope you praying as I fall down
You see I'm falling out the sky
Hope you praying as I fall down
(Fall down, fall down, fall down)
Man it ain't easy trying to fly
Hope you praying as I fall down
(Fall down, down)
Hope you praying while I fall down

[Outro: Jered Sanders]
Man I ain't lying there's cyanide in my heart
I fear for the repercussions I'm trying to kill the thought
I know the Devil be coming with that fufu
A wise man told me I'll only crawl
Not cause I'm scared of flying
But cause I'm scared to fall