Fat

I was 12 and a half
The first time a boy called me fat
We were at a dance
My hair was down
Jason came and asked me out
As a joke and all his good friends laughed
I wonder if he ever thinks about that

Didn't know how to hate myself til I learned it from someone else
Didn't see what was wrong with me
Just lived in my body
Did my best to lose the weight
Hoping the hurt would go away
But damn skinny feels just the same
I'll always carry
It in my body

My grandma paid me by the pound
Said I should try to slim it down
Went to meetings with my mom
The less I ate the morе they applauded
Being hungry madе me feel so proud
I'm still not full yet ten years out

Didn't know how to hate myself til I learned it from someone else
Didn't see what was wrong with me
Just lived in my body
Did my best to lose the weight
Hoping the hurt would go away
But damn skinny feels just the same
I'll always carry
It in my body

I'm carrying what Jason said
All the comments from my mom and dad
None of it was ever even mine
I could of lived my whole life just fine

Didn't know how to hate myself til I learned it from someone else
Didn't see what was wrong with me
Just lived in my body
Did my best to lose the weight
Hoping the hurt would go away
But damn skinny feels just the same
I'll always carry
It in my body
I'll always carry
It in my body

I was 12 and a half
The first time a boy called me fat