Far Off Distant Plans

Hiding in my far off distant plans
I see a house with people I don't love that I command
Please good god just tell me that it won't be an accident
Spare me from a closed-eyes existence

Is it doomed to fall into the north?
Hunker down and live a life but not know what it's for
Oh, am I just a pawn?
It's an old cosmic raging storm
Such a drag but I don't know better anymore

When I lay with you
I'm terrified that we might not make it
Fall asleep and then forget
How to get back to our lives

Everything that's swimming in my head
It's pointed to the idea that I'm already quite dead
I see the steps I do not wander yet
I still will take them
I remember eating something way back when
Who will rescue me from this body of death?