​far from perfect

[Intro]
I need to learn how to love myself
If I don't, then no one will

[Verse 1]
My friends call me often, I have a problem
My own skin is a place I don't know, the mirrors are haunting
You know what I wanna be, grim
But if I do not help me, the world I'll envy
The cold gets colder and I can't stop shaking
The walls get closer and I can't stop pacing
I need time to be away from everything
But I do not trust me with my own well-being
I'm far from perfect, don't call me your idol
I'm always searchin' for answers from my own survival

[Chorus]
I need to learn how to love myself
If I don't, then no one will
I keep my hands around my throat
I squeeze 'til I choke, I need to stay so I can learn how to heal
I need to learn how to love myself
If I don't, then no one will
I keep my hands around my throat
I squeeze 'til I choke, I need to stay so I can learn how to heal

[Verse 2]
It could be any day now
It could be any day now
It could be any day now
It could be any day
But not today, oh, not today
I wanna break through and escape
These chains I made, my mind a maze
So I will take what I can take
Thought these emotions were a phase
My bones could break from all the pain
I put myself through every day
But not today, oh, not today

[Chorus]
I need to learn how to love myself
If I don't, then no one will
I keep my hands around my throat
I squeeze 'til I choke, I need to stay so I can learn how to heal

[Outro]
Back then, I was never complacent
I had a dream and I even chased it
I had a heart inside of my chest
And it beat with the love of everyone I met
If I met me now, would I be my friend?
These wounds won't heal 'til I make amends
With every word that I ever said
To myself that make me lose my head