Fantasize

Not quite like imagined, experience denied
Indulge me for a moment and let me fantasize
Genuine interest has been in short supply
And undue expectation sits on the other side

Subtle disappointment, anxiety aside
Attributed to kindness, of which you are inclined
Another evening drowning in rice wine
But i prefer to know you than say goodbye

A bit demoralized, a sense of worthlessness amplified
Unwarranted response, wish i had more nonchalance
A fuzzy image in my brain, somehow your face is out of frame
I wouldn't recognize you in the morning light