From Linnea :
“this song is about being very anxious and also embarrassed and also sorry and trying not to spiral totally out of control”
Secrets whispered in my ear
All the words I've been dying to hear from you
Listening to my favourite songs
Under the covers we hum along
Lean in, but don't look too close
There are things I don't want you to know
And please, don't watch me unraveling
And now you see me on my bad days
Falling back into my old ways
Spinning in circles in a black haze
I didn't mean to fall apart
I didn't mean to fall apart
Fly high, then sink so deep
These feelings bring out the worst in me
Thought I had it under control
But when it happens it swallows me whole
Get out! But don't walk away
When you see what a mess I have made
And you, you're watching me unraveling
And now you see me on my bad days
Falling back into my old ways
Spinning in circles in a black haze
I didn't mean to fall apart
I didn't mean to
On my worst days
Falling back into my old ways
Spinning in circles on the driveway
I didn't mean to fall apart
I didn't mean to fall
fall apart was written by ellis (Pop).
fall apart was produced by Jake Aron.
ellis (Pop) released fall apart on Wed Jan 22 2020.
“This is really just an honest reflection of my struggle with anxiety and how I can’t hide it from the people closest to me. It’s about the feeling the first time someone you admire sees you in your most vulnerable state, about putting in the work to get better but still having moments of weakness.”