fake sick (unreleased)

When I get dehydrated
And dizzy and spinning
It almost feels like alcohol
And I pretend I’m a big kid

Sometimes when that won’t work
And I’m too tired to imagine
I listen to my body
And then I go for the real thing

On the floor
In the corner of the party
It’s a studio apartment, with the big light on
Gulping down nice cocktails quickly
Letting my phone get too low, on charge
Just enough for a headache in the morning
To let myself be a waste for once
Just enough for the headache when the morning comes

With a doctors note
I’m allowed to stay in bed
It was easier convincing
By just making mom feel bad

But the week is never over
Staring at my pen
Till I’m, wishing I was nauseous
Getting dehydrated
Getting drunk to fake sick
In the morning
Fake sick

Sometimes after I eat healthy
Or sometimes just not enough
I think it’ll help me wake up happy
But it never really does

Stay in bed, watch sunlight on the ceiling
Manifesting my future but
Even on the billboards and big screens
I’d still hate my guts

So I’m
On the floor
In the corner of the party
But it’s a studio apartment, with the big light on
Gulping down nice cocktails quickly
Friend of a friend
Asks “how writings coming along?”
Just enough to be nauseous when I get home
And have to go to sleep for once
And have to wait till the morning to make the song

With a doctors note
I’m allowed to stay in bed
It was easier convincing
By just making mom feel bad

But the day is never over
Staring at my pen
Till I’m, wishing I was nauseous
Getting dehydrated
Getting drunk to fake sick
In the morning
Getting drunk to fake sick
In the morning

Getting drunk to fake sick
And have to go to sleep for once
Drunk to fake sick