Failure

I'm not about to milk emotions
I'm doing quite the opposite
I'm exposing all my faults
Take my arrogance,and stopping it
I'm done with saving face
So the truth,I'm exposing it
Time to man the fuck up
Do my job,and fucking roll with it
I'm a fucking waste of space
That can never be debated
To think I've hurt so many people
Theres no saving this
If God does exist
Then I'm going to hell
If I was ever an angel
Then from Grace,I have fell
I shut down when I'm upset
So I don't have to face the truth
That I'm exactly what I hate
And the levels I'll stoop
I've killed all my relationships
And blamed it on the others
And I've used all of my sadness
To serve as a cover
I've come to terms with the fact
I'm a terrible person
All the love in my life
I just never deserved it
I'm a spoiled little brat
Who's just better off dead
I know it seems like I'm harsh
But it just has to be said

There's no atoning for the hearts
That I have fractured
And what's worst is that
I fuck up and I try to play the victim after
Then get mad when someone
Tries to help and fix my stature
All this plays into the failure
That I manufacture

Hateful thoughts that I've included
In a song where I boast
Is derived from my self-hatred
And the thoughts I have most
People say I'm a good person
But they lie to themselves
You can ask my friends
Because the truth they will tell
I'm incredibly selfish
And have narcissistic tendencies
I do stupid shit
That makes it hard to get attached to me
I've lied so many times
I don't know who I am
I don't know what makes me,me
Or what I'm doing's a scam
I get mad at the fam
When they give me advice
Misinterpret it as darkness
Tryna kill my fake light
And I'm done with the fights
I'm too lazy for war
I'm a misanthropic smartass
Who hates their very core
I don't even know
What I'm even still here for
I should have taken my life
When I had the chance before
Don't think anyone would care
If I suddenly went missing
Only thing to my name
Is every line that I have written

There's no atoning for the hearts
That I have fractured
And what's worst is that
I fuck up and I try to play the victim after
Then get mad when someone
Tries to help and fix my stature
All this plays into the failure
That I manufacture