facet

Deep into the sky
As i live and breathe i just can't cry
The things in front of me i can't destroy
The people outside i can't say
Can't control the things that ain't mine
When i can't even approach what's inside
Its ready to flow, on the edge of my throat
Like i'm back to where i was three fucking years ago
Like i took two steps back and i'm at square one
The old mechanisms don't work anymore
The structure is gone and i don't see light
These words right here are what's holding me tight

From

That thing

That i shouldn't do

Cos ppl 'love' me so i'd be the damn fool
And it burns
It keeps burning
Watching whatever i can so i stop concerning

Cos whenever i do its the most worst thing
And the glue all melts, the clean-up's so tiring
Has it gone to shit, nothings started yet
Just wanna leave this earth, find another place
Where there's no pressure, nothing in stone is set
Cos even moving this body's just a band-aid effect

It's the same same words
And the same same thoughts
That i keep thinking
And they say to console
That its all just wrong
And i'm better than that
But am i really tho

Am i really tho

Was i ever worth more than the sum of my goals
And its all about what am i achieving next
Whether i've done this yet or i'm gonna do that
Or i need more sun or i need more friends
And i keep confessing and letting it out
But i've been numb for longer than i've lived in this town

Began as an abstract, but pervasive now
Its in every object every facet of me now
Had plans for today but they're derailed now
Must be nice to be happy, to look down on me now