Extremely Dark Days

I can´t even remember when the sun died
There´s just drabness in my mind
Why should I explain that even breathing is so tiring
On a crossing leading to the other side
Leave me lying calmly under the creased blanket
Let me doze off and go away
Darken the room with autumnal twilight
Open the windows to freezing air
Yesterday I observed the sky, awaiting a ray of light
But all I could see around me was completely dark
As reconciled flesh leisurely consumed by eternal night
Through the mouth of Mors, with every new breath I am inhaling death

Falling into a warm volcanic throat
Never to be born again
Relief´s waiting at the end of the road
Deliverance from torturous pain

Why are you telling me merciful drivel about the will to live?
My power is gone, just a pre-mortal feeling deep inside of me
My train is brought to a standstill in a neglected terminal station
Just howling of forsaken dogs as a closing oration

The awaited morning is not coming again
Night simply turned into another one
Every look back hurts as a knife stab in brain
Flashbacks are bringing me down
Today´s winners stand on the opposite shore
Glad they are saved for another day
Everything that could be lost is lost
Such an extremely dark day!