Explicit

[Verse 1]
I took a week off my phone, it didn't help much
Instead of scrolling alone chasing a head rush
I wrote things down I've been feeling pretty often
Felt like a conversation laughing with an old friend
I wish that it helped me more, wish that I felt less
I slammed and locked my doors, somebody break them down
Trying to make sense somehow, spill all my guts out loud

[Chorus]
I don't wanna say something explicit
So I'll sing about it while I'm in it
A pretty harmony to hide my demons
And all the things that keep me far from sleeping
Oh, I don't wanna say something explicit
Like how I thought about who'd miss me if I meant it
Or if being 17 was how I left this in the sunset
Oh this is no sweet conversation

[Instrumental Break]

[Verse 2]
This is no call it for help
I'm busy healing, I'm well
I can admit to myself
That I be making things way harder than they need to be
I can't believe that I'm 20
I'm older than I thought I'd be
Got some [?]
Singing through in the nighttime
Crying when it really feels right
This is me in the bright light
Moving on for my best life
Every low has a good high
At this point, I'm here for the ride

[Chorus]
I don't wanna say something explicit
So I'll sing about it while I'm in it
A pretty harmony to hide my demons
And all the things that keep me far from sleeping
Oh, I don't wanna say something explicit
Like how I thought about who'd miss me if I meant it
Or if being 17 was how I left this in the sunset
Oh this is no sweet conversation

[Instrumental Break]

[Bridge]
I took a week off my phone, it didn't help much
I can still feel alone and choose if thoughts won't win
No, they are permanent so I just let them in

[Outro]
I don't wanna say something explicit
I'm just making sweet conversation
Sweet conversation