Existential Crisis

Im jaded
I’m livid
I’m faded
Just hallucinated
Psychosis
Throwing off my homeostasis
Maybe I should
Coin flip
Like Metallica’s bassist
Cause I wanna die
Fuck a vibe
I’m Hurting inside
Wanna commit suicide
Cause I hate my life
I’m walking on thin ice
How can a thought
Hurt this fucking much
My own voice inside my head saying your not enough
I wake up everyday suicide plaguing my brain
By the time I go to bed I’m thinking the same
No one in my life really knows this pain
I want to kill myself every second of the day
It will get better is what they have to say
And honestly
I wish I had it that way
Im a recluse
Alone with all these issues
I have family and friends with their own avenues
Maybe here and there I receive an I love you
But Suicide is definitely on my menu
I feel like a fluke
My death is way overdue
The only reason I’m alive
Is I don’t want to end up in the ICU
5150
I’m not someone you should envy
Soon to hit obituary
Mortuary
Cemetery
Just a fading memory