Exhausted

[Verse 1: Rxseboy]
Honestly, I'm exhausted
Why is my society so toxic?
My sobriety affecting me like I was standin' in a mosh pit
I just think I'm runnin' out of options
Everyone the opposite
Hoping they don't see me as a college kid
'Cause most of them don't even know what knowledge is
I'm rippin' up my scholarships
I just wanna be an artist now
And I know they'll prolly hate me, say I'm watered down
I don't got any trophies, I'm stuck on the shelf
Every day is my battle, I'm only fighting myself
If I was ever deployed I think I'd write to myself
They say they want mе to fail, I'm not receiving no help
I'm not wantеd, haunted by every comment
I promise I'm being honest, they steady working for honor
I never could be a starter, they breaking through all my armor
And maybe I'm just a joke, I should've been workin' harder

[Chorus: Laeland]
Tell me, okay
It won't stop the pain
Life continues this way
And I am drowning, so
Call me lonely
Call me messed up
I'm just tired of this world
And I'm tired of myself

[Verse 2: Rxseboy]
Right now I don't know about it
Tryna think of any way that I can go about it
Lotta thoughts in my mind, now it's overcrowded
Take a sec' and a breath to control the balance
Every minute addin' up on a stopwatch
Not enough time, feel like everybody bossed up
I cannot shoot, time is up on a shot clock
Wishin' I could swish but I'm still gettin' crossed up
Say you ballin' out, friendship fallin' out
Always in some trouble, no one hears me when I'm callin' out
Hopin' music gonna change my life
People leavin' me, I know that I can make this right

[Chorus: Laeland]
Tell me, okay
It won't stop the pain
Life continues this way
And I am drowning, so
Call me lonely
Call me messed up
I'm just tired of this world
And I'm tired of myself