​everything’s in front of me and im petrified

[Verse 1]
I been here before
I been working so damn hard, this not a miracle
Take a look inside my eyes, I want it all
I won't let it slip away
I won't let nobody tell me who I am
I can't feel a thing today
I think there's something in the air
Something wrong with me, oh
It keeps going on, I'm all alone
I don't know what the fuck went wrong
Block my number and throw my phone
I can't take this anymore
I keep tryna out run all my problems
I can't do it in one day
And once I solve one, another one pops up
I don't know what else to say

[Chorus]
'Cause every little thing I ever wanted
Is right in front of me, In front of me, yeah
And we can't tell the difference
But it's different, don't know what that means
What that means, yeah
People change and things do too
I won't ever put the blame on you
I can't save the both of us
'Cause I'm so damaged with no trust
So tell me, why the hell should I give a fuck
When I'm the only one that tried for us
You ain't never think I was enough
But now you hitting me 'cause I'm coming up, oh, no

[Bridge]
I speak the truth
I just say what they won't do
Nothing's new, it's all the same
I feel like this all a game, yeah

[Verse 2]
And if it is, then I'm winning
I won't lie, I been high for a minute
I don't wanna think about all of the shit I gotta finish
'Cause I'm just getting started and barely I'm finally in it, yeah
I been waiting so damn long
It feels like a trap from the god damn start
I lost my soul, I lost my heart
And I don't know who I become
Always on the run from something
I'm not the same kid I was as a youngin'
My biggest fear was to become nothing
I shoulda been scared of who I am right now
I'm holding on to what I know
I still got so much more to show
But I'm holding on, yeah

[Chorus]
'Cause every little thing I ever wanted
Is right in front of me, in front of me, yeah
And we can't tell the difference
But it's different, don't know what that means
What that means, yeah
People change and things do too
I won't ever put the blame on you
I can't save the both of us
'Cause I'm so damaged with no trust
So tell me, why the hell should I give a fuck
When I'm the only one that tried for us
You ain't never think I was enough
But now you hitting me 'cause I'm coming up, oh