Everything I Never Said

Verse 1
I guess that this is it, this the end of all endings
To be honest, this the song that I was truly dreading
Cause I gotta bare it all, speak the words I never said
Step out the prison I was living, trapped inside my own head
Heart racing, palpitations, don't know why I couldn't face it
We'd been done for a while, don't know why I kept on chasing
Anxiety inside of me, I gotta get it outta me
Cause once we started slipping? Trust left, she doubted me
I became so withdrawn, couldn't find my way out
Constantly shut down so my words hit a drought
And I never been that type, always been so expressive
Spoke with so much conviction, passion labeled as aggressive
Always been misunderstood, maybe it's the Gemini
Cause anyone getting close has just gotten terrified
Takes a while tryna figure if they should stay or pass by
Guess I've never been easy, have I? Nah

Hook (Mac 91)
Said I've been gettin money lately, so I don't need nobody
And I've been makin love to my checks, I don't need nobody

Verse 2
There's some things I gotta say, I hope you can take'em
I got tired of excuses, we no longer have to make'em
It became apparent that you never gave me merit
For being patient and accepting all the times I was embarrassed
You tried to make me feel like I was sneaky and a liar
Cause my past was still present but it all happened prior
Had nothing to do with you, my homies were just friends
But you were trippin over lust through it'd been come to an end
Tried my best to understand, put myself in your shoes
Never mattered the case, somehow I'd always lose
I got tired tryna prove something you should've known
That's why after a while, I started feeling so alone
Arguments turned to fights, the fights turned to tears
Tears became fears that grew resentment through the years
Tried too long, too hard, we ran outta options
Only think left now's to rid ourselves of the toxins

Hook
Said I've been gettin money lately, so I don't need nobody
And I've been makin love to my checks, I don't need nobody

Verse 3
I've spent the last year tryna piece this all together
The days got worse before they started getting better
So I wrote it all out, tried to figure what it means
How we started, how it ended, everything in between
We took too much time fighting with each other
Rather us vs. the problem but our egos were just tougher
My patience wore thin, at times that made us suffer
And each time that we crashed, the impact had no buffer
Now I'm at a place I can acknowledge my faults
Learn from the mistakes and make sense of what was false
Build myself back up, use the pain as motivation
Never again react solely outta frustration
If nothing else I've learned a lot on the person I should be
Maybe this is what I felt when I wrote "Set Me Free"
From the start of this process, to the final lines
I've grown to be better and leave it all behind

Hook (Mac 91)
Said I've been gettin money lately, so I don't need nobody
And I've been makin love to my checks, I don't need nobody