​everyday i wake up i wish i had not

[Verse 1]
Every day I wake up I wish I had not
Every day feels the same it's so hard to stay strong
I've been trying to keep a smile up for far too long
I've been walking down the same road don't know where I'm going
They say I look good on the outside
I'm nowhere close to perfect on the inside
Just don't give me a reason that I should try
That I should try
Why should I

[Verse 2]
I've been keeping feelings tucked up in my heart for too long
Every time I see your face yeah I want to explode
Every time I try to face my fears I turn and I run
Every time I try to do things right I get things wrong
I don't wanna try if it means I gеt hurt anymore
I don't talk about my problems becausе you think that they're small
I can't look you in your eyes if you look at me wrong
I know that the world is big but to me it seems small

[Verse 3]
I just want to disappear and delete myself
I don't know what it means just to be myself
Hope you never have to feel the pain at which i felt
Stomach churning I feel nauseous i cannot stand up
I don't wanna hear another thing about my health
It's unimportant because the plan was always off myself
I don't think you really know how much I hate myself
I don't think you really know how much I hate myself