Even Tho Its Hard

[Intro]
I swear
I'm just sitting back thinkin' about everything in life
No matter how good I done by people
It never failed, man
You know I'm human
I always come back around, totally the opposite
But I'm good though

[Chorus]
Lotta things been in my head
Days I barely leave my bed
I keep pushin' like you said
Even though it's hard
So much pain, I cannot rest
All this time it got me stressed
I don't win, I do my best
Even though it's hard

[Verse 1]
Lately, I been dealing with pain, I'd rather fight
Like why the fuck I'm stuck in the night searching for light
Damn, my niggas off in the sky, without a flight
All the things they left me to fear, it wasn't right
Hella niggas still in the cell, send 'em a kite
Me, I'd rather hit 'em with flicks, I hate to write
Turn my back on many of mine? I ain't the type
That's why the couple of 'em who left, I hold 'em tight
I feel I need a different direction, no distillation
[?] but we [?] fuck 'em, that's restoration
Some people that I love tryna stop me from elevation
Right or wrong, I still keep it solid, no hesitation
Me, I'm in the same location where nothin' promised
Where they say you ain't designed to see thirty, just bein' honest
[?]
Just hope they got to see when it happened [?]

[Chorus]
Lotta things been in my head
Days I barely leave my bed
I keep pushin' like you said
Even though it's hard
So much pain, I cannot rest
All this time it got me stressed
I don't win, I do my best
Even though it's hard

[Verse 2]
They told me keep my faith while I'm losing, and it'll pass
Praying [?]
Hard to see one day you'll be first when always last
I swear it's like your life only relevant when it's cash
Be careful who you give dedication, [?]
Just know you at somebody disposable like you was trash
No [?] with me controlling these motions, I only spaz
Too many niggas singin' the blues right over jazz
[?] speakin' different, most of live it, a different tune
Not knowing things, we made it, our mama, we would be doomed
My children ask me "Will it get better?" I tell 'em "Soon"
I'm equal to the greats but I'm guessing it wouldn't [?]
Even if I never get noticed, I couldn't trip
I know [?], keep on planning, I couldn't slip
Anyone who listen [?], I gotta dip
Regardless, tell 'em "Look at me now", I got 'em Clip

[Chorus]
Lotta things been in my head (My head)
Days I barely leave my bed (My bed)
I keep pushin' like you said
Even though it's hard (It's hard)
So much pain, I cannot rest (I can't rest)
All this time it got me stressed (Stressed)
I don't win, I do my best (My best)
Even though it's hard

[Outro]
Even
My bed
It's so hard
I can't rest
It's stress
My best