Even If

Doesn't seem that selfish
No, not in the least
What's so self righteous about this curiosity
This want for a meager exchange?
So much time has passed, but still, it remains
This need for you is a recurring theme in my life

Don't you think I'm lonely
Eager to complete the story
Confused and still haunted with why you'd start over
Oh, and ignore me

It takes time to realize the other side of you
That's controlled and blinding on sight of our lives
Even if you left me and my brother
Even if you left us and our mother

I want nothing more than to catch your eye
Would you be impressed with how far I've climbed
Without your assistance?
With you nowhere in sight?

Don't you think I'm lonely
Eager to complete the story
Confused and still haunted
With why you'd start over
Oh, and ignore us

It takes time to realize the other side of you
That's controlled and blinding on sight of our lives
Even if you left me and my brother
Even if you left us and our mother

She's had her share
More than we'll know
My brother won't, he just won't let go

They say you're sick and there's a name and a phrase
To apply and help explain
Still having trouble trying to separate
How you started a new family

Even after you left me and my brother
Even after you left us and our mother