Eulogy

My uncle only smoked Marlboros
I told him put that shit down
They put holes through your throat
When I was young loud and rowdy he used to grab me by the throat
Lot of ways you was just like my father
If he bothered
Now that your nephew first pall-bearer of your coffin
Think I loved you
Call you up too often
Hit you up when I was broke
Needed a winter coat
Had no hope
You gave me big bag of dope
Said now you'll be your own man
With your own gram
Don't let my sister hold hands
Pay your own phone plan
Somebody let Koreans kids know I got the white white
But don't let Dominicans know I might go night night
Nice price for the ice think I just might never go down without a fight
You taught me that
When I was about to enlist you fought me back
Now I'm so glad I didn't give my life for a country that hates me
But I mean they still chewin up they own people up on Main Street
What does it mean to lose a loved one
Die before your godson
Know it's wrong to feel like you're still watching over me
Know there's no afterlife but I'mma make you live through my poetry
Not dishonest usually an exception for your eulogy
Thinking about what used to be
You and me
Yo I lie to anybody, say you good human being
Say never went to jail
Never cheated on your wife
Prayed five times a day
Never ran a red light
Yo, I mean, nobody's perfect
That's why I always leave a little break in all my verses
My aunt's here today she's so strong on the surface
Inside I know she's strong like the Earth is
If you was here right now you'd call me a bitch
Like why you crying in front of all these people
Talking about your feelings and shit
You right
Come back for a week we do what you like
So now I'm grown and I wipe my own tears
Buy my own beers
Drink my own beers
Conquer my own fears