Eternity

Yeah
New brush for my still lifes, and my lust
Loved ones and sheep folk, I can’t trust
I ain’t tryna leave broke, hooked on dust
Pathetic little fiend can’t, take his rush
Scratching like Preemo, like I must
Tablets been my chemo, that I crush
Tell myself I need more, had enough
Tellin' mami deep throat, till I bust
You can never kill your memories, way I can
Point out all your enemies, like I can
Baby ain’t no better me, why I ran
Dragged you down with me, always got me out a jam
Never liked what you was tellin' me, you don’t care
Verbally dismembered me, that’s fair
I ain’t got the energy, when I’m here
Fury stay ahead of me, that’s my fear
Hard-headed til the death of me
Yeah, you know the way that I do
Wanna leave, but still you want me inside you
Filly told you all the time, but you tried to
I’m the one that you confide and you cry to
The end of me, four walls I'm confined to
Try to hide, but the devil always find you
An ounce of cure for all the sickness that’s inside you
That goes and makes you suicidal

Think I’ll be here for eternity
Imma, imma, think imma
For the way pluggie servin' me
For the, for the, for the
Think imma bleed for eternity
Think imma, imma, think imma
Love the way pluggie servin' me
Love the, love the, I love the, ugh

Yeah
Do this shit more than I’d like to
More than I would like to admit it, it’s a cycle
I don’t wanna revisit all the shit that I do
Internal quest in search of self, that be ya IQ
It’s only now just hitting me, I was lied to
That’s what happens when all your bestfriends be ya rivals
Couldn’t tell me shit I was higher than the Eiffel
Like the perfect shot from a rifle, would be so delightful
Rather swallow a slug, before you swallow pride
Learned it from ya daddy, be that way until you die
Source of pain, never address or it identify
Kill the feel inside
Suffer when ya lips stay sealed all the fuckin' time
Empathy, no longer filled with it
Used to wanna save everybody so naive with it
So when this life took a real pivot
I had to take what I had, destroy it and learn to rebuild with it
Still livid, thinkin' bout what it cost me
Why it take so long to wake up, smell the coffee
Swear these demons out my system, get em off me
Fighting inner foes do nothing but exhausts me
Disheartening when you realize you the one that’s toxic
Trade your love for pussy chemicals and profit
Got no Theo in my corner tryna solve it
Feel like Vincent right around the time he lost it
I lost it yeah

Think I’ll be here for eternity
For the, for the, for the
For the way pluggie servin' me
Imma, imma, think imma
Think imma bleed for eternity
For the, for the, for the
For the way pluggie servin' me
Imma, imma, think imma
Yeah, ugh