Escaping Solitude

Intro:
(Clears throat)
It's that time again ...

Verse One:
Uh, sick and tired, I'm wired when I lay down
Hate how my desires an escape route
It's late now, got the choir on a safe crowd
This apes frown could set fire to a play ground!

This Faet sound inspired me to let the gates out
Got my emotions floating openly I'd say now
Pray loud hoping hes boating me to make rounds
I shake proud knowingly exposing me will take mounds!

And mountains of money I'm running on empty
I'm simply uncomfy don't push me or tempt me
Present me a pretty penny I'll present you many thank you's
Than work hard so I can pay dues!

I hate who's popular and buzzing
Strip the image of gimmicks and they got nothing
Busting my ass off, writing on a constant
Watching 'em make millions while I'm eating Ramon!

Bombing syllables, killing those in songs
But no one gives a fuck, they want sluts in thongs
Been too long and I swear I've worked too hard
Still barely noticed, yet I spit so many bars!

Pardon my anger I'm dangerously heated
Stranger to myself, yet no one ever see's it
Jesus believe it, I'm secretly depressed
All I want is quietness and some fucking rest!

And death never bothered me til Dave died
That pain still lies deep, keeps my veins dry
Straight cried til my eyes went and puffed up
Yet family members died and I didn't give a fuck!

What's the damage I've managed to control it
Slap me with a bandage and handed me a throat kick
Sick of reality, I have to be a dreamer
Twisted nightmares makes me a silent screamer!

The deeper you dig, the thicker the plot gets
I'm weaker and give a picture to watch flicks
Picked on in high school, never was I the coolest
Out casted with hand me downs, special ED student

Learning disabilities, I'm Dyslexic
Now those words are killing those who said that I'm pathetic
I lesson learned, yes I've burned bridges
Pissed on the ashes, fuck ass kissing!

I've given everything to those who don't deserve it
Now I'm left hurting, with a shattered purpose
I've gathered burdens and emerged to find suffering
There's a reason I don't pick up my phone, stop wondering!

Coming in last place with some gratitude
Just enough to say fuck you with some attitude
I'm mad at who's ever in a better spot
'Cause I've worked for every single mother fucking thing I got, AH!

And not to get off topic, I stopped a lot of shit
Only to slowly learn I've earned me a pot to piss
In, and than some asshole took advantage of me
Ran my money into the ground and now he's gradually

Becoming worse, I wanna murk him now
So fuck you mother fucker this ain't a glass house!
Moved out of my mother's just to get away from ruckus
Now I hate my living situation, and my attitude is fuck it!

Disgusted with my past, I've asked to block it out
I'm disruptive so I crash, can't grasp to knock me down
Found money can make you happy, only if you have it
Now I'm bending backwards faster to get a chance to grab it!

Imagine a cold winter with some inner demons
Seeking to find guidance, I don't know what I believe in
There's a reason for my thoughts, I've often expressed
Lately I dont give a fuck, cut 'em at the neck!

I'm pleasant to those I don't know, cause those close have hurt me
Flirting's an understatement next to the worst thing
Lost a best friend cause pussy was more important
Shit'll never be the same, you forced a closed curtain!

Cursed you out so many times in my mind, 'cause I'm better than confronting you
You'll realize you ruined this one day and that you really had it coming too!
I'm running through my memories, endlessly complaining
Straining on my energy, my remedy if fading

Facing a dilemma, when I go and start my writing/
Cause I'm biting at my fingers and my pen is not gliding!
The lighting in my world is now turning into darkness/
Farthest from happiness, throw it in the garbage/
Heartless, you can tell by the way I move/
The bars been lifted, I'm escaping solitude!

Hook - Jus Mic
I'm letting go, Letting go of my yesterday
Saying goodbye to my sorrows
Thank God it served just a little light in my life
So I could survive, through my tomorrows

I'm letting go, letting go
I'm breaking free, breaking free
You won't destroy, the best of me
All I know is survive, all I know is be true
No more room for conversation, I'm escaping this solitude ...
This solitude
I'm escaping this, solitude
I'm escaping, this solitude