Eremite’s Rest

Forever is not so far away
Endeavour is masking all of my failures
I may never work out what I am missing
Drained of colour I sit and stare but, still, can't see

Flitting wings, how I have waited for you
Patiently. When will you bring me solace?
Quietly, I reach my hand out for you
Settling, I close my fist and you are gone

Suddenly, I am all too aware
Of the prison I've built for myself

Doors locked, windows blocked
Lights out, no power
No more. It's over
I lie back on the floor
Sigh and give up

Aching limbs weighed down
Silent shock gripping

Catatonic shiver
My body purges itself of my soul

Peering, leering, looming nothing
Take me, kill me, something, anything

For one final chance at life, I'd do most anything
Folly of a broken man who gave up everything to soon

I remember
Companionship
That I surrendered
To selfishness

My hatred of the world
Proved to be too much

My final embers
Died with the moth
Like him, I'm ending
In silence, all alone