Enough

Maybe I just need to smoke
Maybe I just need to croak
Maybe I'm just a nuisance cause time
And again, I've proven myself a joke
Maybe I just need a drink
Maybe I just overthink
Maybe I just don't exist
And it won't matter if I was gone in a blink
Overshadowed by greatness
Don't know if I should really make this
I don't deserve anything good
Cause I'm better off remaining here faceless
Why am I still filled with lust?
Why do I fight for your trust?
Why do I strive for some greatness
When I know in my mind I'm never enough?

These are the thoughts that I have
Some of it good,and some of it bad
Perhaps these are remnants
From when I was sad
Perhaps it's the truth
That I've yet to have had
Maybe I'm seeking attention
And I'm saying this to spark up a sequence
Finding myself tryna get some variety
But at the same time,get notoriety
Still a propriety but I'm a rebel
I told myself that for less, never settle
What do I expect?
A cookie? A medal
Come on, be real
I'm greedy like Gretel
It's cause of my dreams
That I reach for the sky
It's cause of my fear
I hide feelings inside
It's cause of my arrogance
I don't get far
It's cause of my mind
That my heart is in shards
Every relationship
I was the problem
I've got all these issues
But don't know how to solve them
I'm still appalled
At how far I have fallen
Why can't I just die?
Why is death stalling?
What is my calling?
Why am I selfish?
Why do I talk about my problems
Just to shit on someone else's?
Why am I so shitty
And continue to live?
Why do so many care
When I don't deserve it?
Why?
All of this why in my mind
Got too many questions
But no answers to find
Is this just part of a greater design?
Why do I strive to be one of a kind?
Why?
I'm just a terrible person
And I'm keeping it real
By being a wordsmith
All that I'm doing
Is rambling on
But I've reached the point
Where I've held this too long

Maybe I just need to smoke
Maybe I just need to croak
Maybe I'm just a nuisance cause time
And again, I've proven myself a joke
Maybe I just need a drink
Maybe I just overthink
Maybe I just don't exist
And it won't matter if I was gone in a blink
Overshadowed by greatness
Don't know if I should really make this
I don't deserve anything good
Cause I'm better off remaining here faceless
Why am I still filled with lust?
Why do I fight for your trust?
Why do I strive for some greatness
When I know in my mind I'm never enough?

When you only feel the negative
You get emotional burnout
And when you're constantly fighting
You don't know how it'll turn out
I got some confessions
I need off my chest
Take out the skeletons
Put them to rest
Gun to the temple
I don't need a vest
My thoughts have been real
And I'm getting stressed
Not feeling existence
No,not in the slightest
I don't have the strength
For the wars that I'm fighting
I know that I say
I'm at war quite a bit
And you know this is sad
And you don't give a shit
But fuck it
I can't keep it in anymore
I'm still overly pissed
At some shit from before
I'm still mad at my father
For not being there
And somebody I won't name
Cause who really cares
No life isn't fair
But I'm saying my piece
I got lots of stress
That I need to release
I don't got no girl
Because I fucked it up
And though I get lonely
I don't deserve love
I seen some real shit
And I still can't get over
Made an honest mistake
And got the cold shoulder
People say they don't judge
But actions speak volumes
I hate masking feelings
Cause I don't like costumes
"I'm not hating on you"
No, that's bull
I am a glutton
I never get full
I took up this rap shit
To pay for the bills
To open up scars
So they properly heal
I talk about traumas
So I can get over them
Instead they got worse
And now I got more of them
If life was a drug
I wanna start sobering
I try making peace
But I am no Noble man

Maybe I just need to smoke
Maybe I just need to croak
Maybe I'm just a nuisance cause time
And again, I've proven myself a joke
Maybe I just need a drink
Maybe I just overthink
Maybe I just don't exist
And it won't matter if I was gone in a blink
Overshadowed by greatness
Don't know if I should really make this
I don't deserve anything good
Cause I'm better off remaining here faceless
Why am I still filled with lust?
Why do I fight for your trust?
Why do I strive for some greatness
When I know in my mind I'm never enough?

Nihilism or philanthropy
Neither of them got me far in this life
Doesn't matter if my confidence is high
My headspace is never alright
Doesn't matter what it is
I can never commit
Even if I see it through
The results turn to shit
It doesn't make any difference
If I self destruct
Cause it wouldn't change the fact
That I'm such a fuck up

Maybe I just need to smoke
Maybe I just need to croak
Maybe I'm just a nuisance cause time
And again, I've proven myself a joke
Maybe I just need a drink
Maybe I just overthink
Maybe I just don't exist
And it won't matter if I was gone in a blink
Overshadowed by greatness
Don't know if I should really make this
I don't deserve anything good
Cause I'm better off remaining here faceless
Why am I still filled with lust?
Why do I fight for your trust?
Why do I strive for some greatness
When I know in my mind I'm never enough?