Endings to beginnings

I can never feel right:<
Baby is it over?
Reminiscing abt all our times
Does tht make us closer

R u alr?
Baby r u online
Now the-now the guilt is placed
N weighing on my shoulders

Ive been sticking wit my rough times:}
N its been feelin awful:{
Is it something tht i get
Is it something idk

Bitch im callin one last time
Yea i said i knew she wouldn't show
Now its raining onto my head
I kinda knew i wouldn't go

My days on repeat
Im stuck n ik..
I get away frm all ts smoke i blow
But here i am im frozen
My-my life is gone but i chose it

Down down i go
Stuck & alone
Words tht ik
Kept my head low

Nodding frm all thse feelings
Thoughts frm in my mind ur stealing
But bitch im ouuta luck
Taking all the air im brеathin

A-a-and im done w/ my whole past..
Its a memory-
My friеnds turned into enemies:/
Somethin i could never b
Onna-onna daily, guess i did change
Now they hate me..

Y u oppin in my way?
Goin back is not tha same!
Throwing shade right to my face
Some things js won't ever change