End of Eternity

I think I’ve been falling to my death phase
I’m wanting less from life, I’m aiming for that scenic scape
Remember when those colors hosted every form of grey
No motivation to do better, I was forced to stay
Though tired, it’s the only way
Of life a broken soul was accustomed to in the end
So this is dedicated to every feeling left in the pen
Deep down, things felt pointless if it all dies
When someone crossed my path when I’m smiling, it’s all a lie
Friеnds come and go
And that’s the problem causе yo friends come and go
Take the piece that was whole
And if you try to play like you’re managing then you’ll slip
When someone readies ammunition and fires it from the hip
Paranoia sets in when you have to react
When being you becomes enough to warrant every attack
When people want to keep in contact but they’re shunned for the act
Now people fall apart if they don’t want to follow the pact
That’s cool
But I’ve spent all my time to reflect
Rose above the criticism cause I’m doing my best
No one ever wanted change and if they do then they’re wrong
The thoughts begin to cloud my judgment if it’s mentioned in song
I’m sorry
But I can’t really sit back and idle
The feeling brings me pain in waves that rise and fall, a tidal
I don’t want to go against the boys cause they’re my idols
Still it hurts to think we’ll only co-exists as being rivals
The world already got hate and I do not want it
If it comes with being up then I’d like to turn down the bonus
Hoping for the best and one day we’ll meet again at the pass
And you’ll give me a smile and assure me the grudge has passed
I know it’s smarter if these thoughts were unspoken
And though I may seem up in spirits deep inside I feel broken
I want them back, but all I have is that they may hear me out
Cause ever since, I’ve struggled living with this crippling doubt