Being R3DD L’s first song where he’s talked about struggling with depression to the point he didn’t want to be around anymore, it was the hardest song to write for the album, next to “In My Head”.
Talking about what he personally went through, R3DD L states that this song is for the people who “fee...
[Verse 1]
Every single day over the last few years has been tough
I don’t want to say it, but I’ve really had enough
Everything’s too much and it keeps eating me up
I don’t know how to do this, I just keep fucking up
I look in the mirror and I hate what I see
A fat mother fucker that does nothing but eat
Because he’s so depressed and he is more than weak
I hate him, myself, I see why he’s called a freak
I fucking hate myself because I lose my friends
When they talk to me, I don’t talk to them
But I can’t help the fact I want my life to end
And I don’t want you round when I go ‘round the bend
‘Cause I will say some shit that I don’t mean to say
When I get pissed off, I just want you to go away
That ain’t a dig at you though, I promise
I just need some time alone to get my head straight
[Chorus]
All I feel inside is this emptiness
And it won’t go away (it won't go)
It won't go away (no it won't go away)
All I feel inside is this emptiness
And it won’t go away (it won't go)
It won't go away (no it won't go away)
[Verse 2]
When I’m alone in my head, I get lost in my thoughts
Thinking how life could be better without me in the plot
Let my family live a happy life without me around
And forget the negativity that follows me around
Like a lost dog, never leaves my damn side
I just want this thing gone and out my damn sight
And out my damn mind and out my damn life
But I hide my depression by telling people I’m alright
When it’s just eating me alive, but I don’t know what to do
‘Cause at times, I feel I don’t have anyone to turn to
I feel like no one knows what I feel, too
I don’t know why I put myself through
All of the shit that I keep thinking about
Like will I go the right way, or take the wrong route
It’s a constant fucking battle ‘cause I’m riddled with doubt
If I decide to stay, I need another way out
[Chorus]
All I feel inside is this emptiness
And it won’t go away (it won't go)
It won't go away (no it won't go away)
All I feel inside is this emptiness
And it won’t go away (it won't go)
It won't go away (no it won't go away)
All I feel inside is this emptiness
And it won’t go away (it won't go)
It won't go away (no it won't go away)
All I feel inside is this emptiness
And it won’t go away (it won't go)
It won't go away (no it won't go away)
Emptiness was written by Lewis Dimelow.
Emptiness was produced by InsaneBeatz.
This song was probably one of the hardest songs I’ve ever written. I broke down to a couple of times when it came to recording, so to get the perfect takes wasn’t overly easy for me to do, seeing as I do everything on my own. I don’t want people to suffer, but I feel the best way to connect with peo...