Elegy in May

I started to fall
In the backseat of the cab
My hand in your hair
Your head in my lap

And every time I dream of this
I wish that I
Did not exist
That I'd have just floated away

And then it starts to fall apart
The day we long to go back to the start
I should have known the moment that
You felt the need to take a step back
I should have just floated away

Why did I believe
In the lies within a dream?
Could I be the one to blame
If it always ends the same?

I guess I've grown and so have you
And i believe that our love was true
And even though it caused me pain
This toxic need wants it back again
The idea of you floats in my brain

I know that I'll move on someday
But for now that backseat is here to stay
And Thursdays will never be the same
I'll smile with sadness and repeat your name
'till i don't feel that familiar pain

I love you
I wish it would rain