Eighteen

[Verse 1]
When I was five, I became way too afraid of the dark
Every night I just couldn’t fall asleep on my own
Couldn’t escape all those beautiful noises
Throughout the night, I’d just keep to my vices

I turned eight, flew across the world through the pacifics
Touched down in L.A. the city now I call home
Didn’t fit in, spent my days as an outcast
Insecurities took over me way too fast

[Pre-Chorus]
I met you when I was thirteen
And that was when I felt my first heartbreak
For a moment everything felt alright
But now there’s no turning back

[Chorus]
Give me some to reflеct on myself
Looking back to the time whеn I was lost and broken
Not knowing why I felt all those heartaches
Can’t keep pretending that they’re not my own mistakes

I never thought that I would make it
Out of the dark world I’ve lived in
Back to the time when I was still naive
I’m finally moving on now that I’m eighteen

[Verse 2]
(Ay) I spent some time recovering, been hiding my emotions
I wrote some songs just to let go of my ugly commotions
Thought I could leave it all behind let go of the past
All it did was lead me to

[Pre-Chorus]
Sleepless nights when I was sixteen
Had no remorse as a rebel teen and
Made excuses to sneak out every night
Should’ve known not to turn back

[Chorus]
Give me some to reflect on myself
Looking back to the time when I was lost and broken
Not knowing why I felt all those heartaches
Can’t keep pretending that they’re not my own mistakes

I never thought that I would make it
Out of the dark world I’ve lived in
Back to the time when I was still naive
I’m finally moving on now that I’m eighteen

[Bridge]
When I finally thought my life would get better
I drove too fast and hit a curb, now all I see is a blur (ooh)
Lost a loved one recently, now I’m scared to lose another
It’s been a month, I still can’t comprehend

[Outro]
(Ooh ooh ooh yeah)
Am I stuck in a dream?
I’m losing self-esteem
It’s not really what it seems

(Ooh ooh yeah)
Daydreaming ‘bout the past
But I know that it won’t last
I know it’s up to me to let go
I will remember