Ego Death

I thought I was my ego
My inner child still in fetal position
Clutch my stitches I believe
That I won’t bleed through
The makeshift façade that you believed too
Tried to build some walls but they just see-through
I be my truest self I just leave you
I thought I was my ego
Wings spreaded
We go through something
Bet if I ain't peep it
Let it take over
That scene setting
Set It up for me again I would probably fall
But I rather kill it now then to lose em all
I thought I was my ego
Thoughts of killing
Had to meet myself
In thoughts of healing
Traumatic past tried to leak into adulthood
This too shall pass was drowning now I sail good
For the Sol I sold myself
On this shit I know myself
Y’all get to see me growing
Owning on the fecal sowing
This shit is here humble omen
Before my innocence was stolen
And still I smile no grill it’s golden
And I go in

I woke up from the fantasy
I gave up on what I need to be
I just want you to be proud of me
Of me
I woke up from the fantasy
(I finally opened my eyes)
I gave up on what I need to be
(I feel like it’s no surprise)
I just want you to be proud of me
Of me
(Be proud, be proud, be proud)

I had a lil homie that
I brought in
Opened my door for him
Scars on his face
Remains
From the battles
Of the places he had been
Before this
He was starving
Tried to feed him
Patience and knowledge
But he didn’t take to it
He would vomit it up
Refuse, abuse
Complain through it
One day he said
Feed me self over others -
And vulnerable is weak
That’s for sisters and mothers
I couldn’t stop him
People in the neighborhood are talking
Looking at me different
For the company I brought in
My big bro called the other day
And said to
Kill him
I woulda did it myself
But he be steady slipping
In and out of other peoples lies
Cutting and destroying ties
Right then I pulled out the nine
And had to end him
Hit the buzzer beater on him
Mike over Ehlo
And that was the end of his journey -
Death of Ego

I woke up from the fantasy
(I finally opened my eyes)
I gave up on what I need to be
(I feel like it’s no surprise)
I just want you to be proud of me
Of me

Ego played the passion
Back end of the rapping
Acting if its magic
Laughing at the madness
I just hit delete the speaker peaked and passed
The threshold
Let hold
Baby that’s Sol
That Sol
Let go
I know
I know
I know
I find silence in the heat
See stages in my sleep
I pick pages for these beats
Work ass off till nothing but
Back and cleats
Run the ball or don’t run at all
Say if you weak
I can’t admit but I can spit some shit
Kameha these beat

I woke up from the fantasy
I gave up on what I need to be
I just want you to be proud of me
Of me
I woke up from the fantasy
(I finally opened my eyes)
I gave up on what I need to be
(I feel like it’s no surprise)
I just want you to be proud of me
Of me