EGO DEATH

[Verse]
Wake up, smoke up, that's how I live it
I wake up with anxiety, hopin' that I would end it
Nobody around me see the vision how I live it
I believe in me way too much that I almost killed it
Every conversation is always about the acid
Talkin' 'bout these ego deaths and what we had is finished
Trippin' every week, it almost sounds like speakin' Finnish
I'm from Australia, so how could I even complain 'bout these ethics?
My family is ethnic, so they raised me as a medic
I'm south-east Asian and they all call me dramatic
I'm not the golden child no more 'cause I'm not systematic
They're traditional but I'm just too original
Maybe speech impediment so keep it minimal
It's all about the spam, corn beef and pork adobo soup
You don't know pressure 'till you feel it, so I'm spiritual
Blame it on the spectrum, but we thought we livin' true
True religion is the cope, and I'm just feelin' you
I don't know what is real, and I don't know who really who
Still see the loser that I was, I'm always feelin' blue
I promised everything would turn to red just as I said
"I'm gonna make it, and I'm gonna make a lot of friends"
But I'm still in my room and I would rather stay in bed
Yeah, I'm just livin' but y'all say I'm so fucked in the head
It's kinda funny 'cause without all this I would be dead
Would be dead, dead, dead
Survivors guilt and all the real ones ended up dead
And all I'm left with locally are these retarded "friends"
They're narcissistic and my wealth is what I am to them
No offense, but life is not just pussy and some cat
You only call when I got somethin' goin' on, and then
It's always rantin' about some bitches that never liked you man
I'm so done with playin' nice and playin' all pretend
My confidence was low as fuck, you'd only make it worse
And now that I get into tune with everything it hurts
My girl the only hurts I'm tapped in with, we hurt the same
And I know someday I'll have the answers to my own pain

[Outro]
Pain, o-oh, pain, o-oh
Pain, o-oh, pain, o-oh
O-Oh-O-Oh