Easy or Free

Before i was saved
Me and the boy who was chasing me
Spent all our days
At the pier
We would pretend
That we smoked cigarettes
When the cold turned our breath
Into steam
We were young and our lungs were still clean
But now nothing is easy or free

His finger and thumb
Made the shape of a gun
That he held to the warmth
Of my cheek
I swore to his god
And prayed a curse on my mother
Till he knew i would not
Dare to speak
And reveal all the secrets i keep
He learned nothing is easy or free

On some of those nights
When the stars were colliding
And murmuring like
A machine
The sounds and the smells
Would remind us of sex
That we hadn't had yet
But in dreams
We weren't old yet, our souls were still clean
Until you took that question from me

I wandered around
Until i finally found
Myself out where the boundaries
Bleed
The lights at the edge
Lit all the roads and the bridges
But the one that would lead
You to me
As if you had some better place to be
I learned nothing is easy or free

Now i know, you know...
Nothing is easy