Nessa sang this song to her audience in Mexico on her 2021 tour and was later teased on her instagram.
On stage she also mentioned the reason she wrote this song;
“ I’ve been struggling a lot recently about stupid beauty standards and you know eating and all that stuff and i know a lot of people go...
[Verse 1]
You should take this as a compliment
If I were you, I would be more confident
You're lucky that you're pretty
Why are you obsessed
With your appearance?
I don't wanna hear it, you're fine
It's been my best-kept secret for a while now
No one ever sees it, but it's all around
[Pre-Chorus]
It's the dinner conversation no one talks about
Don't know how much longer I can keep this down
[Chorus]
Beauty is a knife
I've been holding by the blade
Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything
It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive
They're all like
"Did you change your hair?"
"Did you lose a little weight?"
"You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great"
I hate that I always look my best
When I'm dying on the inside
When I'm dying on the inside
[Verse 2]
I wish I could break the mirror
It makes me feel like I should fucking disappear
And drown my demons in a bathtub filled with tears
No matter what I try, they always seem to come back to life
What if I didn't do this to my body?
What if I quit and then you don't want me?
[Pre-Chorus]
The dinner conversation no one talks about
Don't know how much longer I can keep this down
[Chorus]
Beauty is a knife
I've been holding by the blade
Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything
It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive
They're all like
"Did you change your hair?"
"Did you lose a little weight?"
"You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great"
I hate that I always look my best
When I'm dying on the inside
When I'm dying on the inside
When I'm dying on the inside
[Bridge]
You should take it as a compliment
If I were you, I would be more confident
You're lucky that you're pretty
Why are you obsessed with your appearance?
I don't wanna hear it, you're fine
[Chorus]
Beauty is a knife
I've been holding by the blade
Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything
It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive
They're all like
"Did you change your hair?"
"Did you lose a little weight?"
"You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great"
I hate that I always look my best
When I'm dying on the inside
dying on the inside was written by Evan Blair & Mags Duval & Nessa Barrett & slimdan.
dying on the inside was produced by Evan Blair.
Nessa Barrett released dying on the inside on Fri Feb 25 2022.