Dying

Broken glass and cigarette butts
Get clean to relapse and then what?
I can't deal with this tension
Hate it when you see me messed up
I don't want to disappoint you
But I feel like a fucking letdown
Calvin Kleins make you feel alright
I'm mundane; I should probably get help
Lookin' in the mirror like I hate you
I've been doing this shit since the grade school
Promised next time I'll be fucking faithful
But I know in my mind it's just a fable
Treat the girls in my life like garbage
Maybe it's karma; I'm a starving artist
Why am I always the one that's toxic?
Feel like a walking carcass

[Chorus]
I wake up thinkin' I'm dying
Stuck in bed it's paralyzing
I wish everything was quiet
So I could just enjoy the silence
I'm so tired of voices
That reside in my head
I think I need some poison
Or maybe I need some rest

Twistin', turnin', I've been sleepless
Nightmares every time I'm dreamin'
All my life I've been a reject
And that ain't better as of recent
I like gettin' drunk in public
No concern for repercussions
Broken moral compass
I just numb myself for comfort
Cocaine pile scattered on the table
Do another line, I won't be wasteful
Shorty on her knees looking at me like she's grateful
She don't got a halo
She said she can smell the alcohol on my breath
Sometimes I wonder why I'm here
I feel like I cheated death
Devil got a grip on me; it's like I'm possessed
I'm so sick of feeling like this; I don't want to be depressed
No, no, no

[Chorus]
I wake up thinkin' I'm dying
Stuck in bed it's paralyzing
I wish everything was quiet
So I could just enjoy the silence
I'm so tired of voices
That reside in my head
I think I need some poison
Or maybe I need some rest