Dutch Courage

[Intro]

"Hello, I'm one of the counsellors with the alcohol and drug support line, how can I help you?"

"Um, I'm just strugglin' a bit and feelin' like, tempted to relapse so I thought I'd better call someone"

"Yeah, yeah, so what happened?"

[Verse 1]

Who'd have pictured?
I'd be consumed by such a stupid sickness
Used to witness it but never knew
That I'd find booze addictive
Never knew that in the future
I'd be glued into its huge statistics
It's not exclusive to thе music business
A screw is loose and I rеfuse to fix it
I just choose to sit and down a few
Without a clue how huge the risk is
As soon as it just, hits my lips I'mma lose forgiveness
And go bananas like koalas with some eucalyptus
A cue to quit but what's the point when I'mma fold again
Sold my soul for some coldies, resulting in being cold as them
The golden gem, but now I'm watching my goals descend
My autograph's a mess from getting tremors when I hold a pen
I told myself I have control but the control's pretend
Dug my own hole, now there's too much of a hole to mend
'Cause I've been drinkin' ever since I was as old as 10
Weird how my very worst enemy is my oldest friend, fuck...

[Interlude]

"Yeah, so it sounds like it's really been... It's been your life. It just hasn't been just a part of your life, your life has revolved around alcohol"

"Yeah"

"And so the mind, the addicted brain or the mental obsession... Whatever you wanna call it, yeah, wants to take you back there. Wants to say Sheldon just have one, you're doing so well, one won't hurt"

[Verse 2]

Always sinkin' somethin'
Tins of rum, I'd rinse 'em since a munchkin
Used to drink for fun or drink for functions, now I drink to function
January 1st a binge begun, my fingers crunchin'
Different cups and mixin' up a pinch of punch to bring the month in
My shrinks assumption' is I'm huntin' for an introduction
To a sober life, she don't know that I'm on the brink of jumpin'
A drunken prick, my friends must think I'm a grinch and stubborn
Never wanna leave for lunch I'd rather chug a drink, I fuckin'
Dumped my missus 'cause I knew I'd never make it work
All the pain and hurt, I just didn't wanna make it worse
If I stayed with her she'd never get the happiness she may deserve
Though I loved her, I put my cravings first
I'm so ashamed that I'm a slave to this forsaken curse
And I'm afraid I'll be afraid until I'm laid in dirt
And when that day occurs, save your champagne
And just embrace my words, know the addiction's done
When they take the hearse, yeah...

[Outro]

"So the problem is actually... The problem is a lot more serious than... This is a serious problem, you're in a serious position right now"

"That's, yeah, why... I wanted to stop drinking really. I felt like if I kept going, then I'd eventually die"

"Yeah, yeah... Dutch Courage, what does that mean? It's kind of, uh, false courage. You've had the courage or the humility or whatever, to reach out and say hey I wanna talk to someone. I'm worried I'm gonna drink and I don't want to... And it's about building your new life that doesn't include alcohol"