[Verse 1]
My friends call me dumb so I start to believe it
Say it's a joke but I know that they mean it
I know, they say I'm never there
That I should spend more time with them
That's a funny idea 'cause my friends are at home
And lately, I've felt so depressed and alone
I'm back where I started like three years ago
[Chorus]
And I constantly fail to show all my affection
And all of this shit builds up all of this tension
I wish I could give her the things she deservеs
But keep fucking up, I'm not learning my lesson
I'm dumb, I'm no fun
I have so many things in my lifе that are keeping me up
I fuck up anyways
It's almost as if I just throw it away
[Verse 2]
And my girl’s the best
She wakes up my phone with a good morning text
And makes sure to buy me my favorite gifts
And tells me goodnight after blowing a kiss
Yeah, I know but she's three-thousand miles away
Telling me everything is okay
Always fuck up so I'm taking the blame
[Bridge]
A little bit smarter, a little more strong
A little bit better at accepting my flaws
A little bit faster when I answer your calls
A little more effort when I'm writing these songs
[Chorus]
And I constantly fail to show all my affection
And all of this shit builds up all of this tension
I wish I could give her the things she deserves
But keep fucking up, I'm not learning my lesson
I'm dumb, I'm no fun
I have so many things in my life that are keeping me up
I fuck up anyways
It's almost as if I just throw it away
[Verse 3]
A few months ago I was living so well
Peaking my mental and physical health
Now, I'm here in the back with a face full of tears
In need of help but there's nobody near
But it's fine 'cause I'll take it one step at a time
It's okay if I cry so I’ll keep it together
'Cause one day I know that this shit will get better