Duck & Cover

[Verse 1]
I don’t think they understood me
I still hold back on telling my mom I almost died that day
‘Cus I don’t think she understood me
I still hold back on saying it’s true, I lost my pride that day
And I don’t think they understood me
I got plans to move along, I got plans of moving on
Had that cord around my neck, and yall could never see it through me
There’s that fine line, the one between a man dying
And him actually killing himself, yall think he pussy
They never understood the problematic peices of shit
They group ‘em in the box of fascists and little kids
I don’t fuck with the era of forgiving a pussy bitch
You get a lifetime, you make a move, or spend it in ditch
“I don’t think yall really do it, you get scared and move along”
Bitch, I’ve been moving, I made this tape to get yall in my thoughts
Are you gon’ let it go, all you do is cope, go get it on
How ‘bout you take a knife and put it near your throat, then tell me off, huh

[Verse 2]
I don’t think they understood me
What’s your point? I feel like everybody reaches that tho
Still I don’t think they understood me
And my mother was ducking under-
I don’t think they understood me, vamanos, motherfucker
Raise your glasses for a toast motherfucker
Everyone’s a pussy when they hiding under covers
But you talk about the grief, you still a pussy motherfucker
I could wish death upon enemies
I would never wish the judgement of death, no matter who’s ahead of me
That shit isn’t real, “like mental health can cause your injuries..”
I let all that shit go ‘cus I was scared they couldn’t handle me
My bro was talking crazy, made his father drop his ass
He found out I was talking crazy, that shit brought my momma back
And they ‘gon look below you, look below my legs, drop, and pass
Past the rapping shit, they can’t handle my doubts without a mask
I had to tell ‘em that my problems were past the point of production
‘Cus I would rather suffer than have ‘em degrade my rough shit
I’m still talking bad about the liars claiming tough shit
But Imma take a minute, ‘cus these hoes thinkin they something
Never trust a bitch that don’t believe in mental illness
I’ll put you on a path of all despair, get you some realness
My brother hit me up and told me he was scared of feelings
So I told what I kept under my pillow every season

[Verse 3]
You scared of the playing, you never scared of the sport
Hundred thousand every year, I give my brain to the Lord
I don’t see why they don’t take me serious, she said I’m bored
My own counselor was more concerned than them, it’s just a chore
I don’t care if you don’t go through that, you strength is just a virtue
You don’t wanna hurt me, it don’t take a lot to hurt you
Put your hand in mine and tell me I don’t need to pursue
My own blood will tell me it don’t matter, what’s the worst, dude
One step, I heard you killed your only son
I ain’t never giving up on you, I never jump the gun
It’s a perfect world, leave me ‘lone and settle for your wants
Tell me ‘bout your story bro, tell me ‘bout your blood
Never leave me hanging, bitch, understatement is a lie
I got family back in Michigan, they’ve never seen me cry
But I’m scared the ones who have might be unphased by how I ride
I ain’t no damn remorse in all my life, where is my prize

[Verse 4]
Now I got a chance to say what I need
Never let me be alone, I’m getting down on my knees
When I’m disregarded, please listen to all of my pleads
You bitches need to find some sense, the kids are left unseen