Drowsy

[Verse 1]
11 o'clock at night and I'm searching for dedication and purpose
Too fucking nervous to check my notification
Cause I know, when I open it, the hope is hocus pocus
And I'm broken, we were talking to each other when I wrote this
And I just wipe away the tears in my ocular with a dollar
Now I'm screaming at the back of an opera
Jordan, comma, the commoner
With a bucket of Ramen to fucking shove in me esophagus , I'm pigging like the officer
And see what happened is something that's sorta tragic
You thought that the shit was magic, but it wasn't, now you're laughing
And I'm thinking of jumping up in a casket
You avoiding me like a fucking arachnid
All I ever needed was a bit of attention, and didn't get it, but continued to listen to what you mentioned
Nigga I listened to every bit of your sentence, but when I..
When I...

[Verse 2]
I can't even get out of bed
So many thoughts in my head, nigga, it's hard to forget
I got my face in the sink
And I don't even drink
Catch me staring at the ceiling, and I don't even blink. God!
I'm fucking sick of this moping around the house with my mouth in a fucking pout, and a heart full of doubt
So many tears lost, I'm stuck in a drought
My momma asking why my attitude sauer like kraut
I'm not trying to pick up a fight, I just really need to call you, cause I'm missing the light
This whole life thing ain't looking too bright
I'm not lying when I say this nigga miss you at night