Drowning

[Verse 1]
I like to be empty, just so you can't get me
I know that I'm skinny, I know I'm not trendy
I know I'm not perfect, so don't go and hang me
I'm drowning in my sorrows, so I don't suffer pain
And I'm living in this moment, I've captured and owned it
My last breath's an omen
It only takes a second, for my mouth to open
And the whole world changes with the last words I've spoken
And I ain't event mad, and I am not sorry
So don't go expecting another apology
I'd like to say bye to all those who followed me
And supported each move that I made chronologically
And, I'm sorry that I couldn't do better
But at least be happy that we've got some good weather
Be more optimistic, it makes your life longer
Which is why I'm still drowning under 30 feet of water

[Verse 2]
Ya see, all it really does is just cloud up your brain
In a minute, I saw it, surround in flame
Take it all back, back, back again
To the days when we were young trying to figure out our lanes
When did it all change, when did I become insane?
I started losing sleep, but psycho's what I became
Just waiting for the day when I could take my life back
Get it on track, rewind, realize it's whack
Time gets turned so that, I had never rapped
Never wrote a song, never reached a hundred drafts
We can't change the past, in fact we're too fast
All my judgments are lapsed, and that'll always last
And I will always grasp every moment that I can
To be who I want to be, not realizing that I am
I don't need to change anything to make it grand
I just need to keep trying to make you understand

[Verse 3]
So I'd like to say thank you to all my enemies
All the little pipsqueaks who've been trying to stop my dreams
You could've joined the team but you brought me to the stream
And held my head under, until I couldn't breath
I feel I'm stuck between blatant hate and ignorance
Take the gate, or hop the fence, make a name and stop these gents
They were here from the start and will stay until the end
But won't make it to my brain unless I let them come in
They're all just parasites, out of sight, out of mind
Feeding off the lights that are blinding my eyes
Being blinded my the lies that are right in front of me
The truth is right here but I can't bring myself to see
Past all the lies I think I need to come clean
But I don't know what about
I don't know - can you please just tell me
Please tell me, tell me how to feel
Before I die all alone, and spin like a wheel