Drifting

[Verse 1: Slur]
I need some shots, place the order
Bartender need a lineup, no barber
Put my back against the wall and my guard up
'Member when when my moms had to be my father
I caught up, not liking my writing this paper balled up
I can hear the tears through the phone when I call her
She know I'm on drugs, doesn't mind that I'm high
But I've lost sight of goals with my head up in the sky
Tell me that I'm sick and I'll reply that I'm fine
But I know you can see that vacant look up in my eye
No, I'm not home at the moment
Just to let you know I'm alone at my lowest
Pushed away everyone I held closest
My shoulder the coldest hope they don't notice
All of the tears that I hold back
Everyday I stay wishing that I could go back

[Verse 2: Slur]
I got goosebumps all over my skin
Feel it in the air, where do I begin?
These outsiders don't want me to win
Never mind them greasers, they don't understand
Cigarette breath mixed with the liquor stench
Near the bottom of the bottle as I ponder my death
One swig to the head, polish off what's left
Just give me a sec my thoughts are inept
Nightmares, be inhabiting my mind
I'm breaking out the philly 'bout to roll another dime
I battle with addiction saying sorry to my moms
'Cause it ain't her fault that I'm trying to stay calm
I fear, this the only way to see clear
And make my bad thoughts disappear to thin air
And all these tears, I'm trying to hold back
Knowing that I can't go back