Downer

[Verse]
Sorry if i come off as a downer
I've been going through some existential bullshit
Feel like i've been stagnant every other life movin
Trying to reevaluate this mess that i've been proving
And im filthy, you can tell how hard he work by smelling his shirt
I got a must to it, must do it even though i hate my own harvest
Ain't believe it when they said that "you're awesome"
I took it to the heart when you told me i'm garbage
I bend beyond my limit, mama said that im limitless
This limit is handed to me by life i'm thirst for reaching
For sugar hankies finding that life
Now sure its murderous so id rather lose my own life
I've been so conflicted, haven't felt myself without busting nuts
I'm addicted and a dickhead
Feel like nothings on my mind but pussy and a new bed
All i do is sleep when i look back, i just wanna kick back
Backs facing the edge, they told me trim the hedge put some green in my lungs
Get supreme on my buns, fuck the funds, stack the funds
You're 16 so grab a gun, niggas i had enough on my plate since i was one
And i'm hungry as fuck
I watched my life get smashed like a wife in a cuck
I've been working 9-5, getting mad at my bucks
My hair is meta from this stupid ass hat
And i lost my tripod on the bus, this is nuts
I've been close to the edge and pushed off too
Took me a minute to get back from timbuktu
I lost my mind and lost my edge like all blades do
Im just tryna slice a new perception, teacher said there's no perfection
They just have a wrist defection
I just want some damn direction
This is more than recreation
And after this my feelings going on vacation
Thats why im a downer in a nutshell
I hope i didn't keep you waiting